I'm done. But it's not over.

It annoys me that so many people lack humility. I'm not perfect and I know I have flaws, but I can't take the blame for everything just because the next person doesn't want to. Accepting responsibility for how your actions bleed into other people's lives and beings is a form of respect. But people are so selfish. Everybody wants to take credit for helping people but never for hurting them. Do you ever notice that? Take take take; only giving when necessary to take. I've wasted so much time trying to help others when I could barely help myself. Giving so much I've started losing myself. I'll be 25 in a month and a half and something has to change. My spirit is tired.

sometimes i feel so strong that i feel weak.
something is missing.
when do you know you're whole?
i feel so empty; so unhappy.
something is missing.

Power

Dazed
Everything has the potential to aggravate my nerves; my soul.
Yet, only I have the POWER to do so.
Potential vs. Power
"... No one man should have all that power ..."

I pity the fool

the mutual feeling has lost its way
in matters of love, loyalty & respect, I feel there is confusion
these things should not be burdens nor blackmail
more natural and unconscious
if today you woke up as cynical as yesterday, I pity you
if your bad outweighs your good, I pity you
if you cannot openly love, respect and live in loyalty, I pity you
is your world so small that you can afford to be that naive and selfish?
AHA! I PITY YOU! fool ;)

so much on my mind I don't know where to start
my phone in my hand and a bearing on my heart
clouding my vision navigating dark skies
never in my life have I felt so alive
the rush of uncertainty
the sting of regret
what, with my life, am I gonna do next?

Ambiguous

At what point do we transcend the grey area between selfishness, and selflessness? Is it not righteously essential to success to do so? Is it possible, for both you and your peers to rest assured your best interests are served?
In separate stages of my life I have found it necessary to be either or; selfish or selfless. At either end of the playing field you'll find yourself on the offense, struggling for confidence in your defense, often times praying for the sack from a higher power in the form of answers.
Is there success in the ambiguity of this purgatory?

By definition.

At seventeen I was sure that I knew what love was.
I thought it was irreplaceable
Incomparable even.
However, right now, at 130 am on January 8 of this new year, I can no longer say that that is so.
Why?
Because for this new love, for our love, I'd take back every milligram of love I've ever given and set flame to it all, as I watch the smoke that was my past disappear into the nights sky.
No survivors.
That, is incomparable.

Euphoria.

If I could stop the world and bask in your aura, it would be everything to me. All that is you, beyond my view ...

In thee exact moment in which the world would stop, we would run ... As fast as we could until we reached OUR Nirvana .

Yet truthfully, you're my Paradise, my escape, my wonder wall, myyyyyy Nirvana.

- and

This morning my mind seems to be anywhere but here, while my body is wishing it was anywhere but here all at the same time. I don't know if it's because I didn't have my coffee at my regulated time or the lack of time taken in getting ready for work this morning - I just kinda rolled out of bed.
I'm never really sure why I feel this particular way when I do. Which is often. Though, more often than not I conclude these reasons after the mood is gone, it always seems to be something different, yet similar to past experiences.
Ehhhh.

Merrrp

In retrospect I can say that I cared too much, tried too hard and possibly pushed too soon. But what do you do when infatuated? I can't just sit back and watch such a treasure slip through my fingers as sand would an hourglass. But, yet again, in retrospect I can say that I was blind. What you want isn't for everybody, and what may work for the next person is more than likely not the best thing for you. But, how does one differentiate the two? It's hard enough comparing your wants and needs as is.
I wish everything could be like weed: DEFINITELY good for your mind, body and soul.