Ehhh.

Stop.
You couldn't fathom the life that I live.
Oh. You saw this smile and thought that everything was everything didn't you. Lmfao. Don't be so naïve.
I haven't written in a while because my life has been one big clusterfuck and quite frankly, I'd rather you not take your precious time to pity, or feel sorry for me. And let's be real here; you don't care.
All that, "I'm here for you" "If you need anything let me know" and "I understand" bullshit is for the birds. If you were HERE I wouldn't be feeling like this. If you really could help me with anything, I wouldn't be in this situation.  Furthermore, if you truly understood, I wouldn't be writing this blog because I could confide in you.
Do you know how it feels to be alone? To have family that only calls when they need something but are nowhere to be found when you need somewhere to live? Do you know how miserable it feels to have to fight your parents for all the right reasons? Do you know how it feels to be 17 years old and to have your parent take you to court just to prove you will never be anything? Or how about, how it feels for your grandmother to look you up and down and turn her nose up at you in disgust? All of thee above? I didn't think so.
I know life isn't supposed to be easy, and that's not what I want. I don't mind the struggle because I know it could always be worse.
I'm not sure what the point of writing this was, just had to get it off my chest.
[Living Against The River]