i think my foolish pride may become my suicide

it makes no sense that im here right now

not to me anyway ..

& even though this is MY issue ,

i can't help but blame you

this just aint me ..

i don't think so anyway .

perhaps this is just me with you ..

well , on you really .

it's .. this .. you're more like a drug .

so yeah i blame YOU !

yehhhh YOU !

who am i kidding ...

i jumped in no safety net ,

now my face is a wreck .

they tell me " smile babygirl it aint that bad ! "

bad ?

bad is when you disobey your parents .

bad is failing a test you studied for .

bad is ..

this aint bad - hell it aint even worse .

this ?

this is rad

more so than the movement itself .

& you expect my feelings to simply be shelfed ?

well i thought of better my damn self !

how bout i take you & put YOU on a shelf ?!

i wonder what it is you keep tellin yaself ?

Fuck

what do i keep tellin myself ?

hearts screamin ! - keeps yellin !

i can't even hear myself !

& to think , i thought love and happiness were two words synonomous to themselves .

but you're right ya know - maybe this isn't good for our health .

because ultimately - we're just fighting ourselves .

i wore you like a crown - my sweeet PRIDE

so i guess the blames on my side ...