the city disappears under the clouds & moments later it reappears full scale, birds eye view. my ears pop, frog in my throat .. this is it. & all im thinkin is 'damn i shoulda peed and grabbed some starbucks before i hopped on this fckn flight' haha. i shed not a single tear, but the baby on the flight didn't think twice -__- for what though? shed tears for a new beginning ? not at all, im ecstatic! for so long ive lived my life as an unhappy person and i couldn't figure out what the problem was. was it me ? yeap ! i always made decisions based on what everyone else's reaction would be, or how my decision may affect the next person. & ever so approriately wale's ambitious girl shuffles onto my ipod .. ive got ambitions bigger than the eye can see. ya see ? this move is something i have to do for ME. i don't really give a fuck ya know? parents tried ta talk down about the possibilities w/o realizing that i am very aware of the possible negative outcomes, but im so over thinking about the negative. with this change in my life i plan to change many different things, starting with this : i am fully focused on the positive. it's obvious that bullshit is ever so graciously calculated into our lives at an upsetting sum, but how can we ever be happy and focus on the have's as opposed to the have not's, if we so willingly overwhelm ourselves with the negative? that sounds like bad math in my book.
anyhow, what im basically sayin is lets make a toast to change - not that bullshit change folks be TALKIN about - a change to vow to. fuck a new years resolution, there's too many damn days in a year to just aim for one goal - pshhhht. this change is for me, you, and everybody else whos scared to make a change. #iSaluteYou ! *sips flight apple juice* PEACE
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